"You're so old."

Upon my 19th birthday, I received several messages telling me just how old I was. Sure, 19 is not anywhere near "old", but it is a major time for change, growing up and figuring out what the hell you're going to do for the rest of your life.
My mom told me the other day that I can now start building my life and I can start becoming the person I want to be. But that is the problem; who do I want to be? I'm sure I'm not the only one who doesn't know what they want to do in life, but knowing that you're not in it alone doesn't make it any easier. It's like when the whole class fails a test; sure, you all failed, but it still negatively impacts your grade.
All your life, your parents tell you that college is where you go to get your life together, find a career path and eventually get a job that will get you through the rest of your adult life. With all the pressure of choosing a major that will actually get you a job, it's easy to just say, "screw it". Plus, there's the massive debt, stress break-outs and the dreaded freshmen 15. Nowadays, there's so much you can do outside the practical world of banking, business and accounting. I mean why go to college when you can just run a profitable YouTube channel? I talked to one of my closest friends the other day and we came to the conclusion that school is stupid when instead, she can sell things on Etsy, and I can write a blog for a living. There really is no happy medium. You can't be happy with your career and be successful.
So what do you do? I started this blog to hopefully find that answer.
Writing has always been an outlet for me and who knows, maybe through narrating the many ups and downs of my life, I'll figure out what I actually want to do with my life.

"I only want to write. And there's no college for that except life." 

- Dodie Smith