Adult in the Making

At work tonight, we were reflecting on our 18 year old selves and it made me realize just how much you can change in such a short amount of time. Three years ago today, I was vice president of choir, dating somebody for a steady few years and working in a bathing suit shop. I was a brunette, 20 something pounds heavier high school senior who listened to too much pop-punk and took too many naps after school. I thought I was dating the man I would marry and I had no idea what I was going to do in college or, even scarier, after college. At 18 I had consumed roughly ten alcoholic drinks in my entire life. You probably wouldn't recognize me now unless we've been in contact since graduation.
In 2016, I am a 21 year old tortured writer who is in a committed relationship with my chihuahua. I've been through three relationships and had three different jobs since I was 18. I have made numerous enemies and gained an immense amount of friends since I was 18. I experienced more loss and tragedy than I ever had before in those past three years. I grew up. I became someone who does not take other's bullshit. I became someone who understands her worth. I became someone I never expected to be. I am not proud of all my choices and I am not positive that every decision I made in those three years was right but I don't regret any of the things I did. All experience, good and bad, helped shape me into who I am right now. 
If you don't like the person I am or the person I have become, fuck you. 
I like the person I am and that's all that matters. 

I may not know how to grocery shop or cook very well. I may not always be the responsible one and to be honest, I haven't vacuumed my bedroom in months but that's all part of the growing up process. You learn everyday how to be a better grown up. You learn that "adulting" isn't always easy but that it's okay. There isn't life without pain and hardship but you can't let it get the best of you. 
I am going into this year with more knowledge than any other year and I am going into it with open arms. Life is too short to not take advantage of every minute. Laugh, drink, love, create rad shit and don't let anyone tell you who you are. 

Happy new year.